I was out with the kids last night I took them to the New York Fried chicken place and as we were waiting for the chicken who should walk in but O'Shay he had on his motorcycle jacket and his hair was freshly cornrolled I on the other hand had on a cute pair of 7 jeans my green DKNY bomber jacket (the puffy kind with fur around the hood and my hair was pulled back into a ponytail which hangs a little past my shoulders and NO MAKE-UP I was like damn any way he spoke "what's up"?
me "nuthin much". I was so happy he did not mention calling me or anything like that since my daughter Marshae was down my mouth and asking who was he I was shocked to see him man I have got to be more careful like ...................I should have told um I was married uh? He said he would see me Sunday night for our coming out party Tony is going with me my cover will be blown. I wonder if O'Shay will leave me alone now? I hope not the boy is fine. Marshae said mom he is old I was thinking no he's not but I forgot she's 12 everybody is old to her (smile)

I am so excited I am off tomorrow shoot I plan to shop all by myself no kids and no husband. I called Sexy C and told her I would get the tickets from her tomoor so I will just sale that one girl the 5 tickets I have and get the 5 from Sexy C for my folks problem solved.
I told tony about the weekend trip my girl Shawn is having for her Birthday.
can' wait to see what he has to say

I did it again
I opened my big mouth and told this girl at my job about the party and now she wants 5 tickets instead of me telling her I did not have them I tell her I "Yeah sure I got you" and now I have to go out Cookie's house tomorrow with $100 I don't have so I can get the tickets and bring them to her on Friday which is my day off damn I'm always doing shit like that.
My sister called after I sent her a e-mail asking if she was gonna have my nephew's Birthday cake Friday. This chick tells me her boyfriend brought him a cake about 10pm last night and they sang happy Birthday to him then. Now since she has moved here we have celebrated all the kids and each others Birthday together. I was kinda sad Then she tells me her kids aunt will be down for New Years so she might not come to my coming out party (bike club) I was like oh hell naw but then again I kinda fiqured something would come up for her and she would not come since Mike (her man) was not going she is so needy when it comes to men.
My girl Shaw decided to have a all girl sleep over at her mom's cabin in the moutains in January since she turned 30 on Sat the 23rd. I hope I can go It's so hard telling Tony I am going to stuff like that since he knows I go both ways I always think he is expecting something to go on. Shoot in a way I hope something does since my last female experience was in the summer. Oh yeah Shawn wants to invite my sister which I hope my sis does not go that would really ruin the party for me I might even cancel if that happens.

Well Christmas has come on gone the family was very pleased with everything they got and even Tony was happy he got the Lebron James tennis shoes. Me he got me 5 $100 Visa gift cards and he said they are for me to shop for myself only I can not buy the kids or him anything. I went shopping after work yesterday and got 4 pair of pants, 3 shirts and 2 pair of the funkiest boots you ever seen they are so like that. I am a shopaholic and I can admit it. I have gotten better over the years but I still feel a rush after a shopping spree I am more relaxed.
lets back track some
I went out Friday to a party my whole motorcycle club went and it was okay the guys were old and not really my type but I flirted as usual and got 2 drinks for free. I met a guy who reminds me of Ice Cube his name is Jay and he was a cutie I gave him my voice mail number it's this phone number through Net Zero and people always get your voice mail you record your own message and everything it's free. Once you listen to the message it gives you the option to call the person back by pressing #1 and that way your voice mail number shows up on the caller ID. The catch is you can only talk to the person for 10min at a time crazy but I gave it a try shoot Jay called me that Sunday and Christmas morning I was like whoa. I did return his call from work but got his voice mail and left him a message. I kinda regret giving him the number but I'll see how things play out.
Why can't I just be satisfied with what I have at home I always have to test the waters it's so wrong.
My friend Shawn thinks our supervisor whats me (sexually) and since she has said something when she hugged me yesterday it felt awkward. I wonder if it's true only time will tell and if she was even a tad bit my type I would give her some play and maybe a taste
I have been playing with my bullet more often and thinking of women again while doing it mainly my first experiance with this white girl named Nicky she was the first pussy I ate or shall I say licked because I was not sure what the hell I was doing and she walked me through each step man I'm getting wet just thinking about it after I got it down lets just say it was on. I have only ate two other girls and this one girl Jo I attempted to do her but I was not doing a good job so she did me
Enough of that talk
I have no plans after work today as of yet.
Oh before I go why did this one girl who's in the Birthday club with Shawn and I call Shawn's phone like 5 times and then call me making small talk when all she wanted to do was see if Shawn was at work today. Damn what does she think I amd and if Shawn wanted her to know she was not at work today she would have called her. I should have let my phone go to voice mail an dthen I bet she would have either called the next peron or came down to our office

My husband Tony woke me up this morning with only 20 min to spare before I had to be on the train and on my way to work. He started rubbing on my ass which ment he wanted some of my good lovin. I was not in the mood it had nothing to do with his sex not being all that good except the oral now thats the bomb but other wise I have been faking orgasism for the whole 10 years of marriage. He rolled over and we began to get it on when his dick went soft and that was the end of that. I lost about 4 minutes for that bullshit plus I now had to take a shower I am out the door 10 min after I should have been and on my way to work when I realize I have no money and my fare card is in the negative. I plan to just use Tony's card since he just got paid today and his balance is over $3,000 but surprise, surprise the machine keeps reading a error and I can't use it I end up driving to work on the fumes in my gas tank and getting to work 5 min late I walk into my office I am instantly engulfed to a scent that makes my nose burn and eyes water. As I get closer to my office door I pass Dunn and realize it's his cologne he sould be fired or at the least suspended for that sorta behavior in the work place it was foul.
I got some money from my husband to get my nails done after work today I get to leave early for the holiday. I still need more money and wish I had the guts to ask a guy for money. I mean so many of them try to get with me and we kick it for a minute but I never have the guts to ask for money I feel they should just give it to me. I swear I need a man on the side or woman with mad cash flow and who could get me off nicely in the sex department.
Christmas is right around the corner and I have yet to finish shopping. And my husband is holding out on to the cash like he is not buying anything else the kids are like we should have never moved into this big house since we don't have hardly any extra money now a days we moved from a 4 bedroom house to a 6 bedroom 4 bath home it is very nice I love it and the right size for a family of 6 with 2 dogs a Yorkie and a Roc. things are tight right now since we just moved in Sept. next Christmas will be better.
O well let me finish some work so I can get out of here
Happy Holidays