my Girlfriend shawn does not have any kids and really acts like she does not like them she is cool around mine it's just sometimes I notice when kids are mentioned it's like she has a attitude it's kinda like she acts like a kid herself and does not want them to take the spot light.
We just won movie tickets to see Stomp the yard you can only bring 1 guess so since she won she is going to go with her friend and then give her pass to me so me and our co-worker can go but she says "Shoot ya'll can have that pass you won't embarrass me trying to get in line with all your kids". I have 4 and our co-worker has 2 I ignored her. Then her friend Fran wins and she's like "Okay now Jada you can have your own pass and Felicia (co-worker) you can have yours". Later she is asking if where going to bring our kids and shit so felicia says "Why do you want to bring someone else on the pass". Shawn says "No I'm just trying to count how many kids are coming cause I might not want to sit next to ya'll". I'm thinking why? shit at the last movie we went to your girlfriend was making more noise then a 2 year old at Chucky Cheese but I just continued to ignore her. It's because of stuff like that I don't want her around my kids but when she is she is very nice and acts like she likes them. I don't know I guess it's different when you don't have any children. But it's not like my kids are babies they are 16, 14, 13 and 7 I mean come on

I spoke with T this morning and told him in a round about way that me and my husband were doing very good and I was happy. He starts telling me how he met Diddy around New Years at some party and they talked like for 10min and he wants to here his stuff and everything he's getting his my space page up and running everything. For some reason I think he was trying to impress me. But he had his chance and would never even come up to see me he kept faking.
I checked my voicemail and saw O'Shay called me twice and when I called him back he was like "Dang it's about time I can call you but not talk to you is that how it goes". I was all smiles I asked him why he did not come to the New Years party and he said "You know I'm the dirty .......and that means I am the last on the totem pole and I had to work at the club house I was kinda pissed about it but o well". I told him I would be at their party this Saturday. He seemed happy to hear this. I can't wait to see how he acts on Saturday.
Everything is chill at home Tony is back to his usual self and everything

Well last night when D came home from hanging out with his boys I gave in and gave him some the sex was rough like he had not had any in days. Oh well I guess things are back to normal if you can call this normal.

Last night things were looking up he as cooking dinner again and cleaning out the refridgerator. I had to leave for a meeting with the lady who's wedding I am planning.
He calls me to make sure I am picking up the girls from the basketball game at school. I tell him I will pick them up and then he says he is going to Flavors (his buddies bar/club) I'm like cool anyway once everyone is down for the night he comes in about 11pm sits on the edge of the bed, takes off his shirt folds it and places it in the drawer, hangs his coat in the front room, hangs his Jeans in the closet (in the room) puts on his pajama shorts (does not take off his underwear) I am paying close attention but pretending to be engrossed in the TV. He then goes to take a shower when he comes back he tosses his underwear in hamper.
Now I ask myself why didn't he take off the underwear before he put on his shorts and took his shower. I want so bad to say something to him but I hold my tongue he goes into the front room to watch a movie (I can see the half of my front room from our bedroom) once I think he should be settled into the movie. I get up close and lock the door and begin snooping I get his underwear out the hamper and BAM it has a wet spot on it in the front kinda near the top under the band it's as if he tried to spot wash it. I sniff it soap and water aaarrrrgggghh something is up I say I sniff the rest of his clothes just his scent.
I unlock the door and get in the bed as I unlocked the door I saw him looking at me from the front room.
I place the drawers on his pillow wet side up and a sticky also that reads "Wet stain uuummmm cum, yeah that's what I think nice spot wash".
I can tell he was reading the letter when he came in he tossed the underwear back in the hamper and got in bed this fool pulls me close turns me towards him and starts sucking on my breast and biting slightly on my nipples oh I can tell he thinks he's gonna get it and right before he thinks he's gonna put it in I say "Tony your not putting it in unless you have a condom"! ..............he gets off me defeated and turns over to go to sleep yeah people I told my husband he had to strap up ................shit he could have just had sex
what was that stain? and why did he try to hide it? naw player you won't get me caught up in your dirty little web of shit
That's why I won't sleep with a man outside of my marriage and yes the ladies I have been with have used dental dam (oral sex protection)
I feel okay I mean way better then I would be feeling sometime last year this relaxing and being at peace is wonderful
I ended up playing with my bullet that night and thinking about Sonovia

I have another blog but the site has been blocked. I am so pissed anyway I just have to type that one from home uh?
Tony held me last night when he came home from karoke and he did buy a pack of New Ports because this morning I saw ashes in my car. I did not fuss I just told him he forgot to get the ashes out of my truck.
I had a dream last night that Tony and my sister had been having an affair for like 2 years and I knew nothing about it. I was pissed when I woke up and then to find him holding me after when I got home from work yesterday I was telling the kids about the first person you call when the New Year comes in is the person who was on your mind. I know Tony heard me and it was after that he started acting nicer towards me or shall I say more civil. I do plan to call him as always to let him know I am at work, see if he found my ATM card and remind him of the call he made to my sister sounding twisted and how he could have dropped the card at the 7 eleven.