I just found out that Tony called my sister to tell her happy new years but he did not call the kids I am assuming her call was the first one made. She said "Gurl Tony called me to tell me happy new year and he was twisted I almost didn't reconginze his voice". Now why would he call her and not his own kids they were the first people I thought about and I called them way before I called my daddy. I have always been a tad suspecious of them nothing big I just always thought of it as me being slightly jealous of their relationship once she moved here. But like he says she is like a little sister to him I wonder if he called his own brother and sister. Anyway I was just wondering if anyone else would have made this call before calling their own kids.
I am at home and Tony is cooking he did not speak to me when he came through the door. I said "Hey Tony". he replied "What's up? and left it at that I came downstairs to blog. I wonder what is up with him and once were back talking which will be one night while we are in bed he will pull me close, turn me to face him and then say how he loves me and how he is sorry thats when I will say to him "So why did you call Stefanie not even call the kids to SAY HAPPY NEW YEAR". It might start another argument but hey I have to get it off my chest and tell him about it.

Tony is still trippin and I know it is more to it then him not getting any and me turning him down. This is what I think and remind you I have been knowing him since we were 16 and 17 years old we have been married for 13 years and dating for 16 so I know him a litter bit
I am 5"6 140lbs, light skinned, wear my hair to the middle of my back I keep it streaked Honey Blonde and I have a very beautiful smile. I've been known to turn heads I am easy going and get along well with others both sexes I have some sex appeal as well I've been told.
Tony is 6"1 325 lbs, light brown skinned, sexy lips, keeps his hair cut low, trimmed beard goatee, dresses real nice, friendly and easy going as well sometimes his butt crack is showing like some nasty plummer and he farts every and any where and he is always diggin in his nose. When people finally meet him or see a picture of him they always say "I did not picture your husband to look like that". or "I would never thought you would be with a guy like that". and my favorite "Girl I pictured your husband looking like some model type dude Tyrese type".
Okay now I notice whenever we go out and I'm looking very nice he has a attitude and I always big him up hold his hand try to stay up under him like to boost his ego but he pushes me away and treats me real funny like he wants me to chase after him and shit it's so weird shoot our whole marriage is crazy.

Okay I am a little hurt by this my husband is tripping hard because I did not have sex with him last night when we came home from the party. He was acting funny since Saturday not having much conversation with me and going in the room to watch tv away from me I mean acting so stink when I hugged him he would push me away. I've said this more the once and others have said it too but I think he is jealous of me it's crazy but I swear it maybe true. I know he hates me he has told me this before and I see it in his eyes sometimes when he is looking at me. Why do I stay you may ask shit he's all I know and I know he will take care of me and the kids I really have nothing to worry about when it comes to that.New Years eve we went to church at 8:30 and after that I went to the store and got something to cook for dinner while I was cooking Tony took a nap for like 2 hours shoot I was tired but knew I had a lot of stuff to do so after everyone ate I got ready. I had to pick up Shawn from her house to ride with us to the party someone tried to break into her car. at the party I had 1 1/2 glass of Grey Goose and was tore up. I asked Tony to dance with me but he said NO I could see him watching me it's crazy. I don't remember the ride home and when my head hit the pillow I was out for the count. This morning I was talking to Tony and he was ignoring me he went in the bathrooma and when he came out I asked him what was wrong he said "You treat me like a stranger or a rapist". I fiqure out he must have tried to get some sex last night but I was so drunk I must have told him NO I said "Tony I was Drunk". He said "I BET A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE HIT IT WHILE YOU WERE DRUNK". I told him that was messed up to say and he said that was how he felt. I felt like crying and I did but inside I refuse to let anymore tears fall regarding him ever again. Part of me wishes he would leave and another part knows staying with him is for the best for the kids and me money wise. My husband thinks I'm a freak when it's true I am a flirt but I have not had sex with any man but him since we have been married. I just asked him if he made Darnay a plate and he looked at me all mean and did not say anything I had to repeat the question and then he looked at me all crazy and said "NO". In such a mean way that Marshay looked at him and repeated "NO". I am laughing about this now but believe me if this is what my new year has in store for me then hold on blog fans the story of my life this year has just begun.

I was out with the kids last night I took them to the New York Fried chicken place and as we were waiting for the chicken who should walk in but O'Shay he had on his motorcycle jacket and his hair was freshly cornrolled I on the other hand had on a cute pair of 7 jeans my green DKNY bomber jacket (the puffy kind with fur around the hood and my hair was pulled back into a ponytail which hangs a little past my shoulders and NO MAKE-UP I was like damn any way he spoke "what's up"?
me "nuthin much". I was so happy he did not mention calling me or anything like that since my daughter Marshae was down my mouth and asking who was he I was shocked to see him man I have got to be more careful like ...................I should have told um I was married uh? He said he would see me Sunday night for our coming out party Tony is going with me my cover will be blown. I wonder if O'Shay will leave me alone now? I hope not the boy is fine. Marshae said mom he is old I was thinking no he's not but I forgot she's 12 everybody is old to her (smile)

I am so excited I am off tomorrow shoot I plan to shop all by myself no kids and no husband. I called Sexy C and told her I would get the tickets from her tomoor so I will just sale that one girl the 5 tickets I have and get the 5 from Sexy C for my folks problem solved.
I told tony about the weekend trip my girl Shawn is having for her Birthday.
can' wait to see what he has to say