I placed a flirty type ad on Craigs list and did it in my area at that. I ended up getting like 200 e-mails from guys and girls. Now the girls that was cool but the guys my god. Tony started acting like an ass since Tuesday and I'm beginning to think he found out about the e-mails ...........like maybe one of the guys I sent pics to knows someone that knows Tony and it got back to him.
I mean last night he didn't even sleep in the bed with me and when I was talking to him ..............you know asking him what was wrong why he was doing me like that he was ignoring me and then turned his back towards me while he was on the couch. But this morning he spoke to me even though it was just to say good morning and then he called twice to make sure I made it to work. It has to be something to do with me and another man............... How could I be so stupid I should have chose a different state not my freakin own.
I have not heard from T either I think that shit has blown over and maybe he's not going to call me until I'm supossed to be back from visiting him in VA ......maybe Shawn is right and he is scared to meet me.
Shawn is still with Brian she is calling him her husband now
I miss Tony and could use a big bear hug from him right now.
I hope things are better once I get to the crib.
I have to take the girls to get their hair done first day of school is Monday and then go fing some uniform shirts.

I think I've lost T for good. I have not heard from him in 2 weeks. We'll He did call me the Wednesday I was in Flordia I missed the call but he left a voicemail message. He has not called me once. Now I figured he was with his family reunion on Monday in Kings Dominion but damn I have not heard from him none this week and I am hurt.
Tony is acting an ass again after all the bonding and closeness I've felt with him the last 3 weeks he's back to short answers and sleeping close to the edge of his side of the bed.
We have not paid July or Aug mortagage and I think he can be stressing about the fact he fucked the money up. Hopefully everything should be caught up by the end of this month.
We'll be in the house a whole year on September 29th I am siced and think we should do something as a family maybe plant some flower or something.
I can feel depression coming on it's like a dark cloud creeping slowly over me and ....................I just want to go home and crawl in bed and sleep
My girl Shawn let me read 2 e-mails from the dude Brian she is talking to and he seems nice enough I mean he seems to like her but damn the way he was talking was like he wanted them to elope and it's only been 2 weeks. She said he loves her dog and let the dog lick his face. She took him to a cookout with her family so he's met the parents and then she met his father as well. I don't know she keeps telling me she is going to take it slow like I always tell her but it's to late I can see it she's head over hills for him. I hope this one last longer the Mike who was the last future husband about 2 months ago. Shoot Shawn has even stopped talking and calling the others guys she was talking to. They have not had sex but he ate her out and she's just gong ho with him. which is a good thing sometimes she jumps into sex way to soon.
Since I'm no longer talking to T I don't see the point of going to VA anyway and don't feel like going I don't have money for shit for real.

The family vacation went great Tony and I bonded a whole lot ..........lets say sex everyday we were in Flordia and that was 7 days
I got so drunk the 5th day there and Tony and I got into a little spat. My dumb ass calls T...............just to hear his voice and you know make me feel better since Tony was acting an ass and I must have sounded like one drunk bitch. I am so embarrassed this is the second time I've done that to him called him while drunk. He must think I'm a drunk. I have not heard from him since I got back but owell I guess he's been busy.
Tony and I have been very close. I like it like that.
School starts Monday for the kids I've been going crazy getting that stuff ready.
We brought a timeshare in Kissimee, Flordia and we're both excited about that.
Jo has filed for divorce from her husband. I guess she's pretty serious with this new guy.
My friend Shawn has met another new guy his name is Brian and he's the one.............he's her future boyfriend......yada, yada, yada she moves so damn fast and gets needy real quick with these guys and they dump her fast. It makes me mad because she's a cool girl.
We have not paid the July Mortage yet. Tony kept forgetting to put it in the mail and now ........shit were like 2 months behind July and Aug. aaaarrrrggggghhhhh I wish I was handling the bills again.
Nothing else much going on.
Hope alls well with everybody and I hope Chubbz has her page up again. I miss her.

I went to a pool party on Saturday and on my way home I decided I would call T. He did not answer I cussed him out on the voicemail 1. I knew he would not answer 2. I know he has been lying to me 3. THIS IS NOT A CELL PHONE NUMBER. I keep asking him about it and he keeps sticking with this is his cell number. Now he has my cell number and knows I'm married so why won't he give me his ? why lie about it? ............................1. He has a girlfriend/ married 2. He is living with his girlfriend / wife...I am pissed about all the lying he is doing. I talked to him twice yesterday and then twice so far today. The conversation is not the same I can sense a difference. I hate the fact he is lying to me..........I do .........I really do. and to think I sent him some cute pics almost showing him what I was working with but not giving too much. I wish he would just come clean.

I found out Sunday morning that Tony has been talking to some chick named Angel. He told me he got her number because he wanted to get to know her better and take her out to get some drinks. What? He was telling me this to my face. I was like WTF??? This man is crazy. How dare he tell me something like that. I did not flick off like I would have a couple years ago could be because I have T but I did let him know I did not like it and if he wanted to open our relationship up like that then I was sure it was some guys who would love to take me out for drinks as well. He did not like that idea and got in his feelings.
Everything has been cool this last week the sex between Tony and I has been off the chain I mean Saturday night we broke the f-ing bed. Tony even tossed my salad
We are getting ready for the Disney World trip and everyone is getting so excited we got the plane tickets last Friday.
I have a bunch of work and blogs to catch up on gotta go.

I have been searching T. for some reason he does not want me to come visit him. I think him and his baby mamma live together and he's keeping some sorta secrets from me. Anyway I got his old address and a current one my girl called the number (blocked her's of course) and it's some chick on the voicemail.uuuummmmmm I'm going to call tonight just to see if he answers and then..................and then I'm gonna give it to him. I would wait until he called me ......like a week later and then I would just piss him off on purpose and I mean just ..........well I know how I do.
I can't wait to go to visit him. I wonder if he'll take me to his crib..........mister slick he's just not slicker then me