He has taken up smoking again and I am so upset by it. He is a diabetic and has high blood pressure so smoking is really not good for him but he does not want to listen and it is so hard when you love somebody to get them to see your not being bossey your just looking out for their well being.
We have not had sex in like 2 weeks and it is killing me I know he thinks it's because I'm pissed he is smoking again but honestly when I was going to give him some I started my period that day so that was out.
We are having plumbing problems again with our basement bathroom and laundry room this is such a blower
now that's more moeny we really don't have and I'll say this having a house is truly expensive and I'm not just referring to the mortgage either.
Tony is having a fight party this Saturday and has invited over a few friends. I am sure this will turn into a big event which I don't mind I love parties I hope we can get the bathroom fixed by then I like to keep the company in the basement area of the house not roaming through upstairs.
My daughter Necole just told me today that next school year she is not going to cheer for her high school now I am bummed out by this because she has been cheering all her life and really loves it. She is the captain of her middle school cheerleading squad. And she really loves it I don't know she said something about Blandensburg high school cheerleader suck and stuff. I hope she changes her mind for real there are scholorships in that as well.
I just found out my girlfriend Lynn is coming to the fight party and Tony does not care to much for her anymore since she was the one who took me to that chicks house he was cheating on me with. But oh well she is my friend and it's my crib too. please let him be cordial to her.
Me and T have been talking more I kinda sorta like him. I know I enjoy his convo a whole lot and miss him when I don't hear from him for a day.

Angie ----Thanks so much for the welcome back I have missed checking in on you and the kids I am sure Neva is running around the place by now uh? I'ma try to catch up today

Well where to begin.


We moved into our new house Sept 29th 2006 we are so excited but now the money issuse. It has been a tight crunch and you know I am not good at saving so we have had a few arguements regarding that.
I see a counslor now to help with my Bi-Polar, drinking, shopping sprees, home life and just all my issues in general.
Thomas is still gay and it's driving me crazy.
I doing Weight watchers and have lost 3lbs and Tony has lost 5 1/2 he is doing it as well.
I am in a running group we get together and run 2 miles and sit back and and chat with each other. They are a nice group of older women and I enjoy there company.
I am going to Myrlte Beach at the end of this month with a few friends and this guy named Crazy Dogg he is in a motorcycle club and I'm gonna speed at least 2 days with his crazy ass.
I have been talking to this one friend of mine Shari and she is nice, pretty and thick I just found out she wants to try it with a woman and I would not mind if it was ME!!! You know how I am with a woman right.
My girl Shawn just found out one of her good friends is taking her to Miami in June. She deserves a vacation she is such the homebody not to have any kids all she does is stay home and take care of her mother. I am happy for her.
I don't know if you remember the guy I was really liking Will (Big) well anyway he came up to visit from flordia he was not looking as cute as before he left. But that smile still had me excited I was not flirty with him because I found out that while Lynn and Bonita were visiting him he was fucking Bonita the whole time she was there. I was like DAMN and felt so fucked up inside. I don't know what made me think I was the only one he would be after or even wait for.
I am a married woman right?
Nothing else just tried to cath you guys up on stuff I have been gone so long.
I have a parttime job working at a strip club ...............NO I don't strip. Not anymore anyways I did that like 9 years ago I am bartender and love it. It is a female joint and yes, Tony does know he said he was gonna bring Thomas up there to show him so pu(*& LOL I know longer thinks it's a faze my son is gay and there is nothing I can do about it.
well I am back and plan to post more often it is good for my soul. ope I get my old readers back along with so new ones.
Later

h yeah I still talk to T

Boy do I have a lot to say. I was with a couple female friends I have and this one guy who we all met online. We are so totaly not interested in him in any shape or form he is just a great guy and always has such nice advice. Anyway I found out yesterday he was emailing Kristal behind my back telling her how vulgar I was and I cuss to much I mean frankly he was just putting me down to her. But he did it in a way only I would know he was talking about me right her said something like. "I don't like to put my business out there like some and I would hate someone knowing about my sex life and having to go to the bathroom to take care of it real quick".

Now I know he was referring to me because while I was in a Bi chatroom I said that to this one girl. e had to have been in there as well because he put it word for word the way I said it.

And then this other chick who's blog we read was cool with me first and would post the comments I would leave her and now she only post's his saying shit like "Tim your so wonderful and always have such great advice". He is pissing me off and Elyse and Kristal as well.

Now I feel like I can't be myself around them because he is listening to everything I say so he can tear it apart. The nerve of him they were my frinds first

Man oh mn my girl is a trip. She is going to Philly to visit this guy she met on the internet.....okay they have seen each other one time since. and they ended up in the hoetl and her getting ate out. She so amazes me ........ I am terrifed of HIV/AIDS and even thougth I think she uses condoms its just spooky the way she has sex with these men.
and not to mention she said she was i n love the otherday with this dude Jay and that's not who she is going to see

My friend who thinks she is in love. She has known the guy all of 2 weeks (maybe) She met him on the internet and seen him once (he washed her car) I mean I feel so sad for her she always does this and then she gets her heart broke. I did not feed into it this time by saying this could be the one and that sorta thing I just told her to "Take it slow". She is all smiles and giddy and shit I swear hate seeing her like this and she knows this is the one it's sad.
Tony told me he already knew Thomas was gay. I was surprised he admitted it. I have still told know one except Cheryl.
My sister is going out of town again and she wants me to watch the kids I just had all of them (4) at the beginning of the month (March 2nd-4th) I swear I always have her kids which makes my house a total of 8 children and she never has all of mine. I just really wish she never moved here for real I know it's sad but I loved it when I was here with just Tony's family anyway I told her about it and she coped a attitude I swear some people think you owe them something.
Tony and I are doing fine in our relationship.
I sent T a nasty, freaky e-mail on Tuesday evening and have not heard anything from him in 2 days I woner if his girl got to it and read him the riot act for some reason I think he is involved with someone and he is not letting on to me. O well if he calls he calls.
Sonovia is calling me again I am so afraid that when we get together I won't be able to resist her and we'll have some wild and crazy sex. My pussy is throbbing just thinking about it.
Portia is going to see Big Will at the end of the month and he wants her to bring me ...............I wish damn I miss him and his kisses
Nothing else but working, living and making ends meet.