I think I've lost T for good. I have not heard from him in 2 weeks. We'll He did call me the Wednesday I was in Flordia I missed the call but he left a voicemail message. He has not called me once. Now I figured he was with his family reunion on Monday in Kings Dominion but damn I have not heard from him none this week and I am hurt.
Tony is acting an ass again after all the bonding and closeness I've felt with him the last 3 weeks he's back to short answers and sleeping close to the edge of his side of the bed.
We have not paid July or Aug mortagage and I think he can be stressing about the fact he fucked the money up. Hopefully everything should be caught up by the end of this month.
We'll be in the house a whole year on September 29th I am siced and think we should do something as a family maybe plant some flower or something.
I can feel depression coming on it's like a dark cloud creeping slowly over me and ....................I just want to go home and crawl in bed and sleep
My girl Shawn let me read 2 e-mails from the dude Brian she is talking to and he seems nice enough I mean he seems to like her but damn the way he was talking was like he wanted them to elope and it's only been 2 weeks. She said he loves her dog and let the dog lick his face. She took him to a cookout with her family so he's met the parents and then she met his father as well. I don't know she keeps telling me she is going to take it slow like I always tell her but it's to late I can see it she's head over hills for him. I hope this one last longer the Mike who was the last future husband about 2 months ago. Shoot Shawn has even stopped talking and calling the others guys she was talking to. They have not had sex but he ate her out and she's just gong ho with him. which is a good thing sometimes she jumps into sex way to soon.
Since I'm no longer talking to T I don't see the point of going to VA anyway and don't feel like going I don't have money for shit for real.